Pick Me Up

Its amazing what some coffee and www.calm.com can do for you.  So, payday was today and money runs out tuesday but all my bills are covered and I should have gas and food till next payday.   No, I don't have a cent left to spare but I am going to be okay. 

The day before yesterday I put 4 dollars of gas in my car to make sure I could get to work until today, all because of some financial surprises and having to come up with 300 bucks outta nowhere, ouch.  I hate surprises, and I can't wait until next month when I should finally have some money left over after bills that way I don't have to make minimum payments on my credit, YAY!  Once its all paid off I hope to be free.  Well, after balancing my budget, paying all of my start of the month bills, and determining I can finally get my car fixed and not have to stress anymore, my mind was fog.  I was blurry eyed and stressed and hating that I'm not even living paycheck to paycheck, I'm living paycheck to tuesday!  Shitty deal, but then I remembered www.calm.com, so I snagged me some coffee and watched river flowing for about 10 minutes with the soothing music, then I watched a sunset on a lake for another 10 minutes and I feel so rejouvinated.  A reminder that although I live in society temporarily, I am more than that.  I am a part of this planet, I am a part of nature.  Sometimes you just have to remember that this life is made up of more than the materialistic world, I suck at that. 

I tend to get caught up in worry about making ends meet and if I'm gonna eat next week, how fast my cars going to get paid off and whether I'll be able to get back into school so I can have a better future.  The reality of it is though, thinking about all that other crap makes me forget about today.  Forget about breathing in deep and being grateful for all I've accomplished, all the things I do have, and for the beautiful stars that come out at night and the wind in the trees while colors light up the sunset sky, and the ducks in the river outside of my home.  I'm glad I discovered this website, sometimes I just need a pick me up while I'm stuck behind expensive furniture granite desk top and glass windows. 

I've quoted this before, but Jack Johnson really has it spot on.  "The wisdom's in the trees not the glass windows."

Oh how I love this man.  Thank you for your contribution Jack. <3