The Human Spirit.

My poor little emotions are in overdrive today.  Sometimes, I just want to cry.  It's in those times that I need to remind myself of the truth in this reality. 

My brother is a brilliant man.  Bloody brilliant.  Not too long ago he said to me, "As much fluoride as they put in the water to dumb us down, as much GMO food they feed us, as much refined sugar we consume, as impoverished and ignorant that they make us. YOU CAN'T FUCK WITH THE HUMAN SPIRIT. We're beautiful."

We.

Are.

Beautiful.

Life can be rough.  It gets painful, and sad, and lonely.  We are an incredible species though.  The human mind inspires me.  With our strength, endurance, inventions, intelligence, spirituality, possibilities, humans are capable of anything we put our minds to.  This big magnificent magical world is absolutely astonishing, and we LIVE in it.  My brother inspires me.  He is a go-getter.  I am so immensely proud of the man he has grown into, and the growth he continues to strive towards.  He is the type of person who chose to educate himself.  Endless research, hours upon hours reading and listening and digging and learning.  I can say I try to educate myself and I read as much as I can.  I try, I really do, but I get side tracked, I get sleepy and lazy and uninterested at times.  I can't say that for him.  I enjoy trying to live up to his example. 


Myself, Aaron, and Andrea.

With my emotions in overdrive I sometimes get caught up in the little things, the insignificant things.  After all, Christmas is just another day.  Most people scarcely appreciate their family until Thanksgiving or Christmas roll around.  My family on the other hand.  We love, we talk, we share, we appreciate, we say the things that are sometimes hard to say.  Despite being without my family on Christmas, I felt their love.  "Sometimes, the people that are a thousand miles away from you can make you feel better than the people that are right beside you."

My brother Aaron decided he wanted to go to a meditation course in Brazil, he currently lives in Argentina.  At the drop of a hat he hitch hiked there.  I'm impressed with him.  That's the same motivation that Christopher Columbus had when he decided to sail to the other side of the world, and discovered the America's.  The same spark of "I'm going to do this" that Benjamin Franklin had when he decided to go out in a thunder storm with a kite!  The shining bright light that is within each of us should be worked towards. 

I took a page out of my brothers book, small, albeit lovely.  I took the Mayans advice on 12/21/2012 to live like there is no tomorrow, and I drove to Coronado, California.  Completely spur of the moment.  It was an incredible trip, and because of it I got to stand in the ocean and watch dolphins jump out of the water and swim about, playing, not even 100 feet from me. 

Life is great.

We.

Are.

Beautiful.

Fink.

I've been watching Lie To Me on Netflix.  A show about the science of reading facial expressions, body language, manipulators, macroexpressions and such.  I find it immensely fascinating.  Anywho, they played a song and it totally sparked something in me.  So I searched it.  I have officially discovered Fink.  I have found my new obsession.



Solitude - Serhatdemiroglu

When Fin sings, "The things that keep me alive, keep me alone."  I can relate.  It burned something in me, maybe that bit of sadness that always lurks with me in my solitude.  I care so passionately about so many things, things that most others seem to find so insignificant.  The things that keep me alive.

It keeps me alone. 

Reading, learning, exploring... these things keep me alive.  Being compassionate, donating, volunteering, hiking mountainsides, signing petitions... these things keep me alive.  Recycling, turning the water off while I brush my teeth or soap the dishes, turning lights off when they aren't in use... these things keep me alive.  I am outcasted because of it.  These things keep me alone. 

My dog is my happiness.  I am a proud momma, and humans have shown me the cycle of disappointment and unreliability.  I value my relationship with my dog more than most of my human relationships.  Long walks, fetch, cuddling, teaching new tricks... these things keep me alive, &they keep me alone. 

I'd love to change that, I can't sacrifice my priorities for possibilities though.  I can't put my self worth on pause for the small possibility that someone might stick around.  So I keep the things that keep me alive, even if it keeps me alone.

Contemplation - Guillermo Carballa

"The monotony and solitude of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind." -Albert Einstein.