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Yesterday was a beautiful day. I ended on a good note at work, with a smile on my face and productivity under my belt. I feel good about work, I am proud of the fact that I can earn a living to take care of myself and those I love. Heather gave me a ride home, I bought her a pack of Marlboro smoothes. I got to my house. Jack, for one of the first times ever, did NOT trash the place. Boy oh boy he got some good lovin! Tony arrived soon after with Pandro in his car. Jack was running around frantically, prancing like a dear, I laughed and looked out the window. A small white Honda pulled up to the side of my house. With a surge of enthusiasm the door swung open &off I was with Jack at my heels to give my sweetheart a kiss. One kiss. Two kisses. Three. Four. "I love you." I missed you, you smell good, you shaved! "Babe your beard is gone!" I graze his face gently. Five. Your smile is beautiful. "Pandro! I missed you!" Kisses to my boys. Love to my boys. So excited to have our boys meet. So excited. Heart racing. With Jack excitedly trying to pile in the car, and Pandro excitedly trying to pile out, I rushed inside to get shoes. A variety of stickies jabbed into the bottoms of my feet &I was back outside in a heartbeat. Jack got left in the yard so Tony could leave me at the park with Pandro, return to my house to retrieve Jack, then all four of us could congregate as a happy family in the middle of a park. Cross your fingers. I hope this goes well. Standing in the park with an open heart and positive expectations I roamed the broad park behind my 6th grade elementary school. Pandro ran around excitedly greeting joggers and dogs strolling by with their owners. I waited impatiently. I impatiently waited. &the time dragged by. Once Tony returned and Jack escaped the confines of the Honda he ran right up to Pandro, sniffed for a half second. BARK. "HEY, you play nice," shouts Tony. &the boys obeyed. We walked, tossed the ball that neither dog was interested in returning.. just chasing. I enjoyed the clouds, the sky, the joggers, &the memories. I told Tony about my 6th grade boyfriend that pecked another girl at classic skating and made me cry on the "tiger walk" the following day. The tiger walk is the trail around the park that all sixth graders walked nearly every day. He felt no pain for my eleven year old heart, he actually found some hilarity in it. Our boys mutually put up 3 foot circumference barriers that neither intruded on. At one point Jack laid down. Following his lead I laid down and used him as a pillow, then Pandro came to say hello. Jack jumped up, I sat up, a rumble echoed in his chest. Talking baby talk to my boys I came to my feet and pet both heads. Jack threw a sharp left hook &Pandro firmly placed both paws around Jacks neck, Jack ferociously snapped at Pandro and Tony roared. Our boys seperated at the sound of Tonys superiority &my poor little heart fell. The hairs on their backs resembled the horns on a dinosaur. They are territorial over me. Pandro is territorial over me. Jack is territorial over me. &&I am lost as of what to do besides be patient. Tony says that we just have to wait. We continued to roam the park and the boys didnt argue, though they did not play. Once we piled back into the car Jack refused back seat. Im not sharin back seat with hiiimm, nuh uh. NO momma NO! Luckily, Tony is alpha male. Though unwillingly, Jack got in the back seat. The rest of my day was simple. The boys only fought twice more, Tony and I went to Arbys then came home. Snuggled. Showered. Then my friends Casey Chelsea and Kyndra came over to play Phase10. I hated to see Tony go, it hurt my feelings. One kiss, two kisses. Three kisses. Four. I love you, I love you. Ill miss you. Drive safe my love. Goodnight. I woke up this morning to my sweet Jack. That little dickhead. How he makes me smile, &simultaneously makes me flame. I get SO upset because of him, he knows better. He has been good though, &Iexpect no less of him. He is too smart to misbehave. Heather came to get me with James, we went to Jamba juice and I bought them each an original size. One white gummybear, one orange cream machine, &one mango peach topper. Mmmm.. I love healthiness. I love the positive atmosphere of entering Jamba Juice. I love the smiles and the music, the colors and the freshness. I love it all. I would love to make Jamba Juice a permanent part of my lifestyle. Work has been nice, one of Frazee's friends is starting and he split with me. His name is James and he is the second James on my floor. Today was a good day. Everyday has the possibility to be a good day.