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Monday, January 16, 2012

Martin Luther King Jr.

Heres a quick slap in the mouth for you all. :)

"Life's most persistent and urgent question is, 'What are yo doing for others?'" - Martin Luther King Jr.

What ARE you doing for others? Personally? I'm doing little to nothing, hence the quick slap in the mouth. Why aren't I doing anything for others? Sheer laziness. I'm on foot, my car got totalled so I'm waiting on the settlement. There is a bus (though I do have a vibrant hatred for the UTA because of the whole destruction of wildlife thing). Aside from sheer laziness though, I choose not to take the bus to do volunteer hours because I let the obsticles hold me back. So when Martin Luther King Jr. asks me "What are you doing for others" he may as well slap me in the mouth for being an asshole.

Heres the catch. You can still do things for others without having to go too far out of your way.

"Man must evolve for all human conflict a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is love." -Martin Luther King Jr.

We've all heard the phrase "love one another" and later gone out and kicked one of the other kids in the shin during recess. Or something along the lines. I remember my first day in fourth grade I walked into class and one of the boys said in a bummed out tone "awww, Diana's in this class! That sucks!" I just about cried until another boy, Ryan, stepped up and said, "Hey guys leave her alone Diana's cool!" Without those 7 words I very well may have had the worst elementary school experience ever because believe it or not they were nice to me after that. Hence my next quote.

"History will have to record that the greatest tragedy fo this period of social transition was not the strident clamor of the bad people, but the apalling silence of the good people." -Martin Luther King Jr.

So all in all, to those of you who are good people out there...

SPEAK UP.

That is precisely what you could be doing for others.

"If physical death is the price that I must pay to free my white brothers and sisters from a permanent death of the spirit, then nothing can be more redemptive."

R.I.P Martin Luther King Jr.

I thank you for your contributions. <3

Rememberance - By PureBear

Thursday, January 5, 2012

2012 Here I Come..

Life just takes you along, you don't really have big choice about it do you? Like buying a ticket to a different country you choose where your headed but if you hit a fucking snowstorm and land in Kansas, its still your fault, you chose that plane!

Well I'm not in Kansas, I'm in Sandy but still. Ive made all of the choices to get me here, and I of course accept all of the consequences of my decisions... But life just fucking brought me here and dropped me on my ass, lifted me up gently by my hands, dusted me off.. then kept fucking going.

I have a new job, one where I have time to blog once more, so if I do have anyone out there who ever strolls by ThreeDragonfliesOnTheMoon I thank you. I've taken another step towards my goals. I did get in a wreck and my car has 4,000 dollars worth of damage (estimated before taking it apart to fix it), so Im on foot once more but work is close to home thank goodness. I am a receptionist. I dress in business pants and smile frequently while looking pretty, and I get paid to do it.

I discovered some volunteer opportunities I plan on taking advantage of now that I have some more time and a little extra cash ;) I'm really looking forward especially to the following three:

http://utahcleanenergy.org/support_us/volunteer
http://treeutah.org/volunteer/
http://www.utahrivers.org/

The Utah Rivers Council is my preference. I read an update stating that UTA is planning on destroying many parts of the Jordan River Parkway and I about freaked out... Here is a link to that and if any one does stroll along here please, for the sake of our community and the creatures we share our environments with, write a letter to the following asking to preserve the little nature we have left:

Gov Gary Herbert
Utah State Capitol
350 North State St, Suite 200
PO Box 142220
SLC, UT 84114

If the link over Jordan River didn't work you can go to the following web address:
http://www.utahrivers.org/programs/jordan-river/

Well, all in all I'm happy to be where I am and I'm so extremely grateful for what I do have. Im excited for 2012! My family is well and I am greatly appreciative of that, my boyfriend and I are keeping our heads above water in our nice little home, and I'm starting school again! Whew. Everything will be ok, I just have to keep on keeping on, right? I got a kindle for Christmas and I put an app for Positive Affirmations and an app for Motivational Quotes on it. I try to keep one of each on mind for the day, every day.

Affirmation of the day: "I can handle all the changes that come my way"
Motivational Quote: "If you take care of your character, your reputation will take care of itself" -American Proverb.

Friday, October 7, 2011

.new.car.

.new found freedom.

im still lost.

i know which direction and continue working towards my goals... but my strength has escaped me. i cant meditate. i cant think. ive been alone and without a home or a place for clothes, without money without food. 20 pounds lighter than my steady average.

i hurt.

im moving out with tony here soon. ill have my own room. i plan to start school finally. ill be job hunting for the sake of my sanity and my anger towards my pathetic excuse of a job.

have i lost my sanity? ive stopped myself from going to McKay Dee hospital to be put in a white room with nothing but myself to rock back and forth and soak. i know i dont have money for that. i know others need that space more than me. i know i can pull through.

i miss my family. i miss my friends. i miss my life.

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Saturday, July 9, 2011

.the.beauty.of.nature.and.love.

Salt Lake City Bird Conservatory

Mmmm... so in love with my man. We went to the bird conservatory last night. <3 It was absolutely beatuiful. We walked around, pointed out birds to each other. Talked. Watched as the sky morph into a scrambled mess of upset. The sun set magically while Tony was lying on a bench and I couldn't help but capture the moment. We were holding hands throughout the night, then it started raining and we both ran to the car together.. I was laughing so hard! It was a memory worth capturing.

I love nature, and life. The way the marshlands ahve such a variety even in just their plant life, some patches were in thickets and other patches were shorter. The birds so perfectly blend into their habitat. The nature screamed out its silence to me with calls from the nature by dragonflies zooming by, birds calling out, wind whispering through the marshes, and constant moving water beneath our feet. The mountains stood tall and protective over these lands, intimidating and nourishing. The sky was everchanging and slowly churned from blue, to grey, to dark grey, to water falling tentively on our bodies. I love nature, and life.

Once my paycheck comes I'm making a contribution, I recommend anyone who believes in this world does it as well. <3 Here is the link.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

.Happy.Fourth.of.July.Weekend!.

Fireworks by chalee-80

Happy Fourth of July Weekend!

Very few know the true beauty of living in this country. I am so grateful to be an American! I am sincerely looking forward to help spreading the benefits we recieve, such as a library in every city or a school every few miles, to other countries as well. <3

Friday, July 1, 2011

.low.low.low...

Hell-oh, my goodness.

I didn't know I was here.

Do you know my name?

Can't go wrong when you try.

Always got to try... no matter how long that shit takes.

Whatever stops you from dreaming, whatever tries to stop you from living...

flip it.

Welcome home.

'Cause right now what I have to do is I gotta amp myself up as well as you.

So what if it took me like two years and shit,

but I'm feeling prepared, &&I'm feeling a little more ready for the world.

&&Less lost, as I once was.

I'm still on track. I'm closer, I'm getting my license here soon &a car by august I hope bringing me closer to moving in with Tony and starting college again. I've just been so down, though. I can't seem to shake the same depression that has haunted me my whole life. It comes in spurts and its holding on tight right now. I can't breathe I can't think I can't bring myself to do anything. My responsibilities are all I can manage to do, Jack is fed, combed &&his teeth are brushed. My fish Zylvestur is fed with a clean tank. I wake up for work every morning and accomplish my duties.

I can't breathe though.

I hurt, I'm sad, I'm low on my luck. Immobile.

I'm fucking depressed. Today I finally had the courage to let Tony know he needs to help me, that I'm depressed and I can't shake it. I don't quite comprehend as to why men don't fucking get it when you say it in different words. I have told him I need him, I have told him I miss him and I have shown him my emotions in the raw.

Why in the hell was he surprised when I blatantly told him, "Tony, I'm depressed."

What hurt is his only response was, "Why?"

Are you kidding!? When we got together, from the very start I told you I have chronic depression and it comes in spurts. Listen to me. Come visit me. Hold me, hug me, talk to me, ask me questions so I can vent without trying to fix them or cheer me up! Support me. I told him once more today that it comes in spurts. He tried to fix it, "We just need to get you moved in." Yes that is my goal yes it will help, but no that will not eliminate my emotions.

TrixyPixie - Depression

"A lot of people don't realize that depression is an illness. I don't wish it on anyone, but if they would know how it feels, I swear they would think twice before they just shrug it." -Jonathan Davis.