Happy Valentines Day :)

There are a handful of legends regarding Saint Valentine but the most known story and the one most appealing on Valentines day is the legend telling of the priest Saint Valentine who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Now a days the retail price of flowers and chocolate near double and the majority of people share in loneliness and envy, that is all Valentines day has to offer.  A sad change, but I love flowers none the less. 

I personally have had a valentine almost every year of my life.  As a child my parents were my valentines, then in elementary school every other child in my class was, and once I hit puberty it wasn't too hard to have someone show me some kind pathetic heart shaped pink something on societys binge day.  This year... I have a valentine that I have unfortunately lost, and a secret that makes my heart flutter.   

Maybe someday. <3

Bury The Castle - Paramore

Well here goes nothing, the wolf blew and now my castle is collapsing around me, my prince didnt really save me... and the clock is just now striking 12.


12 - by xXMBXx

  "She lives in a fairy tale Somewhere too far for us to find Forgotten the taste and smell Of the world that she's left behind It's all about the exposure the lens I told her The angels were all wrong now She's ripping wings off of butterflies Keep your feet on the ground When your head's in the clouds Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Ba da ba da ba So one day he found her crying Coiled up on the dirty ground Her prince finally came to save her And the rest you can figure out But it was a trick And the clock struck twelve Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick or the wolf's gonna blow it down Keep your feet on the ground When your head's in the clouds Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Well you built up a world of magic Because your real life is tragic Yeah you built up a world of magic If it's not real You can't hold it in your hand You can't feel it with your heart And I won't believe it Well if it's true You can see it with your eyes Even in the dark And that's where I want to be, yeah Go get your shovel We'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Go get your shovel We'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Ba da ba da ba..."

Implode: to collapse or cause to collapse inwards in a violent manner as a result of external pressure.

I must hear what I scream - by Lorelix04

Everything inside of me is screaming... and I can't make a noise.  

The Scream - By Offering



Scream - By Selenaa



Willow Tree

I shouldn't have had coffee today.

It awakens my core. 

Today I am filled with passion, unlike my grumpy ass yesterday.  I don't know what the difference is besides the coffee.. Frazee is coming to see me today.  It lifts up my soul, I enjoy his company. 

Today I want my Willow Tree Tattoo.  A willow like my poem... hidden in the shadows of an old willow tree.. A willow like Grandmother Willow from Pocahontas.. A willow like the Womping Willow from my childhood friend Harry Potter... I want a strong passionate willow with twisted roots and low hanging limbs of emotion... I want a willow tree covering my left side reaching over my ribs and stretching onto my back.  It is a grand representation of who I am.  Here are some images that I might print off to inspire my tattoo artist to create a Willow that truly suits me. 

A willow tree that is passionate like the happy go lucky, positive, caring, and damaged self that I am.  The Willow tree meanings includes magic, healing, inner vision and dreams. All trees support life, and I do love climbing trees...

I want a willow tree with delicate artistic leaves such as Grandmother Willow

With powerful roots holding on to what she's knows to be true

Clinging to her foundation, like such

With an overall demeanor of a calm loving place to meditate

A large eloquent beatiful Willow that embraces and guides life...

I'm excited, aren't you? :)

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." - Bessie Anderson Stanley

 



Sunflowers of Golden Hour - Kkart



 

Martin Luther King Jr.

Heres a quick slap in the mouth for you all. :)

"Life's most persistent and urgent question is, 'What are yo doing for others?'" - Martin Luther King Jr.

What ARE you doing for others?  Personally?  I'm doing little to nothing, hence the quick slap in the mouth.  Why aren't I doing anything for others?  Sheer laziness.  I'm on foot, my car got totalled so I'm waiting on the settlement.  There is a bus (though I do have a vibrant hatred for the UTA because of the whole destruction of wildlife thing).  Aside from sheer laziness though, I choose not to take the bus to do volunteer hours because I let the obsticles hold me back.  So when Martin Luther King Jr. asks me "What are you doing for others" he may as well slap me in the mouth for being an asshole.

Heres the catch.  You can still do things for others without having to go too far out of your way. 

"Man must evolve for all human conflict a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation.  The foundation of such a method is love."  -Martin Luther King Jr.

We've all heard the phrase "love one another" and later gone out and kicked one of the other kids in the shin during recess.  Or something along the lines.  I remember my first day in fourth grade I walked into class and one of the boys said in a bummed out tone "awww, Diana's in this class!  That sucks!"  I just about cried until another boy, Ryan, stepped up and said, "Hey guys leave her alone Diana's cool!" Without those 7 words I very well may have had the worst elementary school experience ever because believe it or not they were nice to me after that.  Hence my next quote.

"History will have to record that the greatest tragedy fo this period of social transition was not the strident clamor of the bad people, but the apalling silence of the good people." -Martin Luther King Jr.

So all in all, to those of you who are good people out there...

SPEAK UP.

That is precisely what you could be doing for others.

"If physical death is the price that I must pay to free my white brothers and sisters from a permanent death of the spirit, then nothing can be more redemptive."

R.I.P Martin Luther King Jr.

I thank you for your contributions. <3

Rememberance - By PureBear

2012 Here I Come..

Life just takes you along, you don't really have big choice about it do you?  Like buying a ticket to a different country you choose where your headed but if you hit a fucking snowstorm and land in Kansas, its still your fault, you chose that plane! 

Well I'm not in Kansas, I'm in Sandy but still.  Ive made all of the choices to get me here, and I of course accept all of the consequences of my decisions... But life just fucking brought me here and dropped me on my ass, lifted me up gently by my hands, dusted me off.. then kept fucking going.

I have a new job, one where I have time to blog once more, so if I do have anyone out there who ever strolls by ThreeDragonfliesOnTheMoon I thank you.  I've taken another step towards my goals.  I did get in a wreck and my car has 4,000 dollars worth of damage (estimated before taking it apart to fix it), so Im on foot once more but work is close to home thank goodness.  I am a receptionist.  I dress in business pants and smile frequently while looking pretty, and I get paid to do it.  

I discovered some volunteer opportunities I plan on taking advantage of now that I have some more time and a little extra cash ;)  I'm really looking forward especially to the following three: 

http://utahcleanenergy.org/support_us/volunteer 
http://treeutah.org/volunteer/
http://www.utahrivers.org/

The Utah Rivers Council is my preference.  I read an update stating that UTA is planning on destroying many parts of the Jordan River Parkway and I about freaked out...  Here is a link to that and if any one does stroll along here please, for the sake of our community and the creatures we share our environments with, write a letter to the following asking to preserve the little nature we have left:

Gov Gary Herbert
Utah State Capitol
350 North State St, Suite 200
PO Box 142220
SLC, UT 84114

If the link over Jordan River didn't work you can go to the following web address:
http://www.utahrivers.org/programs/jordan-river/ 

Well, all in all I'm happy to be where I am and I'm so extremely grateful for what I do have.  Im excited for 2012!  My family is well and I am greatly appreciative of that, my boyfriend and I are keeping our heads above water in our nice little home, and I'm starting school again!  Whew.  Everything will be ok, I just have to keep on keeping on, right?  I got a kindle for Christmas and I put an app for Positive Affirmations and an app for Motivational Quotes on it.  I try to keep one of each on mind for the day, every day. 

Affirmation of the day:  "I can handle all the changes that come my way"
Motivational Quote:  "If you take care of your character, your reputation will take care of itself" -American Proverb.

.new.car.

.new found freedom.

im still lost.

i know which direction and continue working towards my goals... but my strength has escaped me.  i cant meditate. i cant think.  ive been alone and without a home or a place for clothes, without money without food.  20 pounds lighter than my steady average.

i hurt.

im moving out with tony here soon.  ill have my own room.  i plan to start school finally.  ill be job hunting for the sake of my sanity and my anger towards my pathetic excuse of a job.

have i lost my sanity? ive stopped myself from going to McKay Dee hospital to be put in a white room with nothing but myself to rock back and forth and soak.  i know i dont have money for that.  i know others need that space more than me.  i know i can pull through.

i miss my family. i miss my friends. i miss my life.

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