.new found freedom.
im still lost.
i know which direction and continue working towards my goals... but my strength has escaped me. i cant meditate. i cant think. ive been alone and without a home or a place for clothes, without money without food. 20 pounds lighter than my steady average.
i hurt.
im moving out with tony here soon. ill have my own room. i plan to start school finally. ill be job hunting for the sake of my sanity and my anger towards my pathetic excuse of a job.
have i lost my sanity? ive stopped myself from going to McKay Dee hospital to be put in a white room with nothing but myself to rock back and forth and soak. i know i dont have money for that. i know others need that space more than me. i know i can pull through.
i miss my family. i miss my friends. i miss my life.
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